Fidelity

I have revelations sometimes…not often so when it happens I feel like I have to share. 

I was just sitting in my room thinking, praying. I was thinking about my life and what it has been like the past couple of months since I have been home from Lebanon. When I returned I was so eager to find a job and start working. I was ok without a job for a while because I had all the time to catch up with family and friends. But after a few weeks I started to become dissatisfied and bored. I was getting a bit stressed out due to not finding the “right” job. So I decided to work at Chili’s again in the mean time. About 2 weeks ago I finally got a job offer I actually wanted. I am now working as an assistant for 3 roofing contractors about 30 hours a week. I am also staying at Chili’s just to work on the weekends. This makes my work week unending. Add on a few more ministry opportunities and my time is pretty much gone. I went from bored bob to absolutely no more free time frank. 

So as I was thinking about all this and how I really felt about my life, I realized I felt dissatisfied with the way it is. Then a voice told me “But you’re a Christian…you have Jesus you are supposed to be content and satisfied all the time! Whats wrong with you?” Of course I started to feel bad…am I doing something wrong? Isn’t there more to life than working 60 hours a week? wah wah wah I want to go back to Lebanon. Then God spoke, “You are dissatisfied with your life because you are human. Your flesh and sinful nature won’t leave you until you are in heaven. You are dissatisfied because you weren’t created to live in this sinful world. You were created for a perfect place, for the Garden.” This is when the revelation hit. We as Believers are dissatisfied with life at times because we long for something more…for heaven. And that is a good thing. We are aliens, outsiders to this world. We belong with God in perfection.  

I want to make it clear that when you become a Believer in Jesus you do become satisfied. The longing that you feel in your heart will be fulfilled. Your Spirit becomes united with God and His peace overwhelms you. My Spirit is satisfied. I am content with God and where He has me in this season. But I do know that I battle against my flesh on a daily basis. My Spirit and my flesh clash more than any opposites clash. My flesh is constantly getting me to think that I need something more that something more will make me happy. While my Spirit hungers for more of God and the satisfaction that comes with knowing Him. 

If you are a Believer who feels dissatisfied with your life or the circumstances you are in, ask God to show Himself to you. Ask Him to show you what to change and ask Him what will bring Him most glory in your life.